Thursday, July 14, 2011

To Know What's Best

"To know what's Best" is a poem I wrote on October 8, 2010.  It is not a poem I would normally share, but today I feel like its something worth sharing with everyone.  Hope everyone is having a wonderful week, and if not, just remember the up's and down's don't last forever.  The sun always shines through.

Photo taken by me at Chain O' Lakes State Park 2009.

To Know What's Best by April L. Gerard

Drops.


Wet salt slides down over
the bridge of my nose,
from the corner of my eye
to the bed beneath me.


The phone in my hand.


One tear.
Two tears.
A Critical examination...
...of myself.


The honesty.


A song and prayer are uttered,
in quiet whispers.
Stinging streams,
streak my face now.


foot rocks gently back and forth,
attempts at sheltering myself
from how I feel.


I didn't mean to feel this way.
I feel like I have somehow wronged you.
Because I feel this.


Knees touch my chest.
My soul aches and screams silently.


till morning fills the room.


Too perceptive of things I'm told.


Give me strength my lord,
for only you know whats best


Feet hit the floor.


I tuck it all away,
knowing I'll only think of this
when its safe to do so,
but not knowing when it will be safe
ever again.

6 comments:

dianne said...

So beautiful April, I think we have all been there, thank you for sharing.
xoxoxo ♡

findingmywingsinlife said...

Hey Dianne:)

Thank you.

wasn't sure if anyone was still reading my posts, but that's my fault for not posting nearly as often or as consistently as I used too.

It seems there is so much in life to accomplish these days, but believe me- writing is still at the forefront of my mind. I do hope that all is well with you and your son.

Rick said...

yeah, april, reflection and contemplation are a hard combination. hope youre well. i havent left you yet.
rick

Dishilicious said...

so beautiful, and so close to my heart. i love this.

Giuliano said...

Great

findingmywingsinlife said...

@ Rick! I hope all is well with your travels to and fro. I'm still amazed with myself at the fact that I even posted this. But we all know how this feels, these little "Big" moments that change us and help us to grow a little wiser; a little stronger.

@ Dishilicious, thank you :) I agree, these sort of things come close to our hearts, each of us here in this world experience such things that leave marks only we see and feel within ourselves.

@ Giuliano, Thank you and hopefully I'll get back into the habit of posting more so newcomers such as yourself might venture back to read more of my thoughts on life ;)