Thursday, January 13, 2011

These Words are my Thoughts

Well, since my poems aren't quite finished yet, below here is a letter of updates.  Hope everyone is doing well in your corner of the world!  Have a wonderful rest of the week :)  

I'm working on a few more poems to share in the next coming days.  My daughter seems to be doing really well with her chemo treatments, its just me that seems to be tired all the time- more so than she is.  But I will not let the tiredness keep me from doing the things that I want to do, need to do, and love to do.

My book is getting further along, although it does seem to take me a long time to write even the smallest few paragraphs sometimes- I still keep at it. It's been almost 3 years since I started it, re-wrote it, and revised it to the point where it is now.  I'm actually really excited about the direction and depth its taken. A few close friends give me their criticisms and thoughts- which I appreciate immensely and I have several artists who are interested in doing the illustrations for it.  In all, I'm enjoying this process of not just writing- but breathing it.  Even on the days I don't get a single new word written in it, I'm thinking of it and what next I want to put into it.  It is also a good long term exercise for anyone who is trying to keep themselves going on pursuing One goal and see the efforts and progress you've made along the way.

Writing is really a good tool for reflection of yourself and the world around you.  I don't know if others agree, but it seems to me that to really find what you want in life- you really have to get to know yourself and the things you hide from you, if that makes any sense.  Either way, self reflection often times helps you to see which step you need to take and where you need to take it at. And then the hard part is always trying make yourself take those steps. Not the easiest thing, as I'm sure many of you are agreeing with me on.

Other things I seem to be living and breathing: I'm also getting more into the musical aspect of my life.  Learning to sing again- and sing really well I might add. It has been a wonderful journey and an eye opening one. I've learned many things about myself in this. Some things I didn't want to see but needed to see, I've even come to understand what it has been all these years that frightens me about singing in front of others and thus, I've resolved to tackle that issue head on with the help of some friends who know more about music than I do.

 I've also taken part in several reviews of others music and their performances which I find I really enjoy doing, not to mention that according to my friend Ajey over at the Odds are Good but the Goods are Odd, I'm apparently really good at reviewing music and spotting out both the good things and the not so good things that artists need to improve on.

I guess,even despite  my daughter's health challenges and the other changes that have happened in my life over the past year, I'm really learning to be me again.  And that my friends seems to be a wonderful thing!  There are still some challenges,but as most of you have gotten to know by now, I'm not one to give up so easily... Life is still beautiful and challenges just make us stronger.

 So, I've decided to Live.  How about you?


Shadow said...

your last paragraph sums it all up. getting to know yourself, love yourself, and learning how to live. superb!

Opaque said...

Good job!