Monday, March 29, 2010

Brave is Love

For Annie & Ajey, my two wonderful and dear friends who are linking the divide of miles with their love and painting it in words for all of us around the world to read.  Thank you each for showing us what it means to be Brave with love.

Brave is Love by April Gerard

I wonder about bravery.
What is it?

Certainly, we shy away
from being the fool.
But, isn't the Fool,
the Brave one?

To shout out,
with such certainty
that one is meant for
another.

Interesting isn't it?

How we view bravery
as something full
of gusto; Something
meant for those
physically strong.

But I look,
and I see people
who show more bravery
in this world than most
would dare to know.

For to me,
A heart held out
for all to hear and see,
that's what Bravery is.

That's being brave, at least to me.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

The Sun Rise

The Sun Rise by April Gerard

Have you seen the sun rise?
No, I don't suppose you have.
The burst it makes in the mid of night,
as it creeps into your very soul.
It lights you up..you know,
on the inside.


No no. I promise I'm not insane,
I'm talking something deep,
something profound,
something that hits you;


BAM!
Like lightning,


as you jolt awake
from your slumber
and realize what you are,
who you are,
the light inside you
that can rise to its call...
if you let it.


But you have to see it,
you have to know it
deep down into the very
depths of that all elusive
grasp on your own reality.

The thing that makes
you understand that normal
is quite strange.
The thing that makes
you awaken to your own
beat.
Your own mind, goals,
and dreams.

Yes. That.

The thing so many push
aside, toss around,
and ultimately pitch to the curb.

Its worth more than anything else
this world has to offer.
You mustn't let it go.

The Sun Rise, in you.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I Live

So many things have seemed to happen all at once in my life as of late.  This is a poem that sort of reflects my train of thoughts as of late. Take care everyone and I'll see you each tomorrow hopefully!

I Live by April Gerard

My plans are unraveling...
one
piece
at a time.


And its ok,
I say to myself,
taking a deep breath in
and
wading my bare feet
in the shallow
waters.


My goals are nearer
somehow.
Even though
what I wanted,
who I wanted...
is not
in reach.


and will never
be.


And its ok,
I tell myself,
as I take a deep
breath in,
swallow down
my pride,
my hurts
and
feel the wind
of spring
and know
that I am strong
enough..


Strong enough
to let it go
and
be me..
for a change.


Feels good,
to wash away
old sorrows.


To know
change;
To know
Life..


and Live.


Yes, Its ok
I say to myself
as I accept
the reflection
in the water,
the woman
staring back,
smiling....


at me.


I touch my
fingertip
to the surface
and watch
the ripples
grow.

Its these
ripples,
its these that
often
lay their
weights
on me.

I can do so much
with one little
touch..

Those who
know me,
see me,
and
are affected
by me and
my..
choices.

I wonder
how much
good or hurt
has been
done
by
the simple
touch
of my fingertip
dipping
in the waters.

Nothing is simple.

But its ok,
I say to myself,
as I close my eyes
and remember
sweet moments;
precious tears
shed.

Because
I've known
Life
and still...

 I Live.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Let it Give

And now, a return to normal posting. Hope you each have had a wonderful start to your week!

Let it Give by April Gerard

Let it run,
Let it bleed,
Let it feel,
Let it be,
Let it go,
Let it know,
Let it in,
Let it out,
Let it alone,
Let it need,
Let it cry,


and give it time,
give it fate,
give it pause,
give it thought,
give it all,
give it none,
give it love,


and never look back.

Let it show,
Let it care,
Let it breathe,
Let it seek,
Let it know,
and
Let it Give.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Good news for now

I'm so tired guys, this week has been such a drain physically and mentally. But I'm doing alright under the circumstances.  A few updates since you last heard me post on here...

my brother woke up from his coma on Tuesday and has since been doing remarkably well- astounding even the doctors with his progress.  He may be able to walk again with therapy and function somewhat the same as before the incident occurred.

Secondly, the guy who did this to my brother is being charged with a class C felony aggrevated battery and assault. $50,000 bail. 

Aside from that, if you would like to know how my brother is doing- feel free to email me. I really don't want to continually post about this situation. I don't like drama and quite frankly I think my brother deserves better than that.  I do deeply appreciate the many prayers and thoughts being given to all of us. 

Normal poems, stories, and random thoughts to resume in a few days. I hope all is well with each of you and if I have one thing to advise to anyone it is to live, really LIVE your life in the moments and show those you care about that you really do care- no matter how mushy, awkward, or uncomfortable it may make you feel. You never know when the last time you'll get to see them is.

Take care Everyone :)

Sunday, March 7, 2010

My Brother

My apologies to all, but I may be away from Blogger for a while. Yesterday I spent the entire day at several hospitals because my brother was severely beaten by another man, of whom was a man we thought was a friend to my brother. He has since been through surgery to relieve the swelling and pressure that the bleeding in his brain was causing. There is a lot of damage and no one is really sure what will happen to him in the next couple of days.  He is still unconscious.  I'll return when I can, but right now- my brother and my family are first priority over anything else.

Thanks everyone, you all are wonderful friends and great people with inspiring thoughts, posts and ideas. See you later this week maybe.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Thought's Weight

Ever feel like you just don't even have the time to think?  That's how I've felt today.  It's not neccessarily a depressing feeling I have, just a weighed down, need to make time for me feeling. Here is a short poem/song for the night.  It doesn't quite capture the whole idea in my head and I don't really think its finished, but I'm tired and I've got a drive ahead of me tomorrow for work.  Have a wonderful evening guys, and if I don't make back to blogger this weekend- I hope it goes well for each of you :)

A Thought's Weight by April Gerard

Weighing
in on
all the things
that make you look at things
in a new light.

Seeing
one time
all the times
I should have tried to make
a different turn.

Trying
to be
more than
I knew how to be; look at me
changing these.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Dance of Life

Wow, these days I'm in over my head with all the things that I need to do everyday.  I can't believe that I'm actually more busy than I have ever been..and I'm still able to say I'm doing alright :-) The snow around here is melting and the day actually feels quite nice out with the sun shining.  It is inspiring a poem in me...Enjoy and have a wonderful night!

Dance of Life by April Gerard

A drop of crimson blue sky
against the beauty of melting ice,
song birds in the air, and hope in hearts.

An age of time where time does not get spent,
but stilled in the silence of reveried awe
at the marvel of continuance in the breath of life.

Wonders still color the soul with deep smells
of wet lands, merging blades of grass,
and winds gently caressing in its sweep.

There is something of renewed energies released;
Encompassed in Green babies of Hyacinths, Iris, and Peonies-
a glitter of twinkling sprouts playing peek-a-boo for show.

The call of the air speaks of long midnight walks,
and puddles to be made in April's rains,
with blossoms of youths looking to dance in it.

You can feel it coming, this rebirth of Life.

Isn't it Beautiful?