Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I am thinking..

I am having a hard time deciding what to post today, so I won't post much. Sometimes silence is better.

For a couple of friends though, here is a video for you each in your darkest hours that I know not how to help you with:

The Fray's "How to Save a Life"

Because I'd give it if I knew what was needed.....

6 comments:

CLAY said...

Wonderful song Wing Seeker--I can tell that many emotions were placed in its composition. Splendid. Ah, and don't worry --many people are still recovering from the changes made by Google.

singamaraja said...

Singamaraja reading your blog

Triana said...

I enjoyed our conversation last night. I knew that I was irritating you with the answers to the questions you were asking earlier in the day & I tried to make them as soft as possible.

I think you could've posted some of the other thoughts that were on your mind; they were very well written & I look forward to seeing them here eventually. On both issues.

Don't forget... I leave Friday for TN until next Friday. What days will you be in Indy for sure?

findingmywingsinlife said...

Clayrn my dear,

I'm glad you liked the song! However, the google changes were the least of my worries yesterday...the song was meant to deter a few people I know from committing a grevious act. It seems many people I know are contemplating the worth of breathing another breathe of this life....that's just heavy for me, knowing I don't know what they need to make them think life is worth continuing.

Sigamaraja,
Thanks for stopping by!

Triana,
"I would stay up with you all night, Had I known how to save a life." Don't get mad at me, but this post was just as much for you as it was for the other person..and if my mother could read this, it would be for her too. You're not a burden, so don't ever say that again, I've driven miles to be with you to help you through your dark times and I would do it again in a heartbeat, no questions asked. That's what my friendship is- its unconditional, for you and for others.

Triana said...

I knew this was intended for me as well, hence the shortness of the post. I knew as soon as I read what you asked of me yesterday. Even if I had not said what all I said, you are smart enough to figure me out, by now anyway.

It's not so much a constant contemplating, nor an issue of "knowing what they need to make them think life is worth continuing" - at some point, every visits the thoughts of life vs death. You do as well, I know.

I know that you would be at my side in an instant, for any reason. Sometimes I just tire of being the crazy friend that everyone thinks needs constant attention. Sometimes, it's ok just to be sad by myself for a time? That by no means indicates that I don't want your gracious presence :)~

I know your husband dislikes me for many reasons; and that is ok b/c the feelings are quite mutual :) But he does have a point when he says that I'm always having issues that seem to require your attention. Although, I know I make a good alibi/excuse also. :)~

Nick James said...

I hope everything and everyone in your life is okay.