Monday, March 3, 2008

Jumping

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately (yes, I know the 'fore warnings, I promise smoke is not rolling out of my ears) Anyway, I got to thinking of one of my best friends, you see my friend is the most unprententious, unassuming, and impulsive person I have quite possibly ever met. I can't fathom doing some of the things she's done and yet I admire her couragousness at giving it her all in every relationship she launches. I suppose I'm a bit too rational in a lot of ways, (although you'd never get my husband to agree with that statement). More to the point, I'm wondering if I felt free enough to do so, would I? What makes me so much less inclined to make a jump and hope I land without breaking anything?

I have a sneaking suspicion that a life lived well requires these unfathomable jumps to be made and it concerns me that I might care to much for the emotional health of others and thus, it prevents me from spreading out and experiencing life for what it is and should be. Then again, somehow I don't think that gravity pulling you down as you jump off a "cliff" sounds too inviting. Maybe I need a new perspective on these things???

1 comment:

crimsonwhiskey said...

First off, endless amounts of gratitude for the kind words :) I'm smiling inside!

Secondly, what makes you think that these jumps are always gravity bound? Sometimes, the jump is only across stream, not exactly off a cliff. Although, yes, I have sometimes done a cliff or two. Not always knowingly.

And thirdly, I'm a tad offened by the comment that you feel too much for others' emotions & well-being to take a plunge. What "emotional well-being" is made when living a life that is untrue to oneself, or to the other person? In the end, everyone is hurt. Yourself included. But that's just my point of view, and of course, is probably rarely correct. :)

Love you!!